I know how fast time goes when you have a newborn. But I think I forgot just how fast it really feels. It’s been years since I’ve had a new baby and these past 6 months have been some of the sweetest I’ve had. A few things about Leni right now…
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jacket: free people// dress: mindy mae’s market c/0// boots: steve madden (old)//
Just took a week off of the blog and it felt nice to kind of stay off the internet for a while. We’ve been trying to stay busy around here with lots of working and lots of chasing Beau around. I still can’t believe every day how big my boy is. We have been ready for another one to come along for a really long time, but it’s unfortunately just not on our time table. It kills us both to have to wait for something we long for more than anything. It’s like a little part of me dies each month. But we are doing our best to stay positive and know that things will work out as they should! It just gives us more time to love on our boy while he is our only one! Here’s to making it a very happy week, because also it’s fall!! And I LOVE the fall.
hat: target// t-shirt: c/o brickyard buffalo// jeans: asos// shoes: tevas
We just got home from a little getaway at Brian Head with Blake’s family. We had a great time but boy am I happy to be back in my bed! Beau never sleeps great in a pack and play so he was scrunched in between Blake and me in a queen bed. We didn’t get much sleep. This weekend we will be relaxing and staying home. We’ve had some stressful and emotional weeks in the family lately so we are ready to enjoy time together for a stress-free weekend. xoxo
These two are just the definition of joy for me. I’m pretty sure Beau would prefer if I worked all day to pay the bills and Dad could stay home to watch him. The other morning I told Beau to say goodbye to his daddy and instead he latched tighter to his dad and said “bye bye mama”. I always have to distract him when he leaves for work or else it is an instant meltdown. And it really is just wonderful, the relationship they have with each other. It makes me so happy that Beau will always have a dad who tells him how much he loves him, and plays with him, and who also helps discipline so it’s not always mama being “mean”. Blake is the best father, and Beau (& myself) are blessed that we have him to keep forever. He works hard for us every day, so we can be home together. Because he is the best father ( & husband) I get to fulfill my greatest dream of raising my babies at home. I love you Blake. There is not a person who has met you that doesn’t love you. But I will always love you most.
Today my baby turned two. I’ve been thinking all week about the day he was born, and exactly what I was doing two years ago leading up to his birth. I was enjoying being finally finished with school, working for my mom up until the day I had him. I went into my dr. appointment for my 38 week check and was surprised when my dr asked if I wanted to deliver the following week. Of course I was thrilled to not have to go to 40 weeks and to get to meet my baby early. I loved every bit of the day he was born. It was a Thursday, the hospital was brand spanking new it almost felt like we checked into a hotel. That entire day was bliss, mixed with pain. But the kind of pain that is worth it, the kind of pain you would relive over and over again. When I can’t sleep at night I try to remember every detail of that day and play it over in my brain. It always makes me smile and cry and feel so grateful that he’s mine. Two years came and went so fast it breaks my heart a little. But they have been the most fulfilling years I’ve ever lived. Happy Birthday my baby, I’ll love you forever.
I took a little break over here for a while. Sometimes I just need to be with my family and not think about blogs or instagram. I feel better when I take some time off to just put down my phone and be present. This Memorial Day was exactly that, nothing but time together. Part of our day was spent swimming at my parents with our little fish. This boy can’t get enough swim time and can’t stop smiling the entire time! These two swam for 3 hours until they were straight up raisins. We soaked up our long weekend, and are ready for the short work week to be over already. Because nothing is better than sunny days with Blake and Beau.
antlers: restoration hardware// lamps: target// bed: crate & barrel// nightstands: crate & barrel (similar)
I just got home from a couple days in Vegas with my mom and cousin. Three days and two nights away from my baby scared me. But I stayed so busy shopping and eating that it went by faster than I thought it would! And while I had the best time on a break with the girls, I sure was happy to come home to my boys. The best part of all was ringing the doorbell when I got home to be greeted by my smiling baby shouting “mama mama mama!!” And then I just melted on the floor into a puddle. He didn’t forget me! He maybe even missed me a little, even if he was with his favorite parent for a few days. I did find a few great things I had to buy in Vegas including these shoes, and this backpack in a matte metallic color. Now it’s back to our life of cars, and coloring, and books, and it’s my favorite thing on the planet.
button up: mindy mae’s market c/0// jeans: current/elliott
We’ve been spending a lot of time outside or by our back door watching our landscape go in. Beau loves the tractors and tells me over and over again “yellow tractor!” And of course he usually has his own cars in his hands. He likes one in each hand and he knows exactly which ones he wants. They have names, which is usually just their color, unless it’s “queen” meaning Lightning McQueen. I can’t even tell you how many times I get him strapped in the car when he screams “WHITE WHITE WHITE”, which of course means if I don’t get his white truck he will scream the entire drive wherever we are going. It’s just precious right? But really to see the joy, and to hear the squeals of excitement when he gets that white truck is just the best thing there is.
skirt: old (similar)// belt: asos// shoes: nordstrom// choker: asos
This was my 2nd mother’s day with my Beau. I still sometimes can’t believe I’m a mother to a nearly 2 year old. The fact that I’m responsible for this little person and all of his needs and happiness is overwhelming at times. But it’s what I’ve dreamed of doing since I was a little girl, and it’s even more of a dream than I pictured. I love being this boys mom! There are moments that are grueling, so hard that I’m brought to tears, and piling frustration. But it’s all worth it when I look at his face, when he randomly gives me a snuggle or a smooch. He is my world. I hardly remember life before him! How grateful I am to be given the amazing gift of motherhood. And to my own mother…..how I love her so.
Here’s to a happy week.
It’s been a bit of a rough week. Stresses with some things in life have caused a lot of heartache and anger and sometimes it’s hard for me to have a good outlet to get things out. I mean after I talk my husbands ear off sometimes I need to write my feelings out. This photo is from a shoot Beau and I did with Mindy Mae’s Market a couple weeks ago, and it makes me smile so I look at it often. My baby boy is the happiest running outside and the photographer caught his true happy self right here. Although to be honest he was an absolute terror during the entire photoshoot and I had to chase him all over the park in my skirt. When I finally caught him he would throw himself into a backbend on the floor and I had to practically drag his limp body back to the shoot. I cried a few times that morning in private so when they sent me this shot I was shocked they captured anything good at all of Beau or me. It gives me hope to know that when things seem like a nightmare, there is still some hope for good things. I have hated social media (aka Instagram) this week. Do you ever feel like that? Sometimes I get too caught up in it all and end up getting down on myself for one thing or another. So sometimes I need a break to remember that it’s just Instagram. And if it all went away tomorrow that I really have all I need anyway.
So I’ve decided the rest of this week will be better. I’m going to make it better, because really life is so very good.